Thursday 18th November

With K out at a gig again tonight, I try hard to sit down and get some writing done. My main problem here is trying to do so in front of the TV. There are various things to catch up with on iPlayer and downloaded new episodes of US comedies like 30 Rock, Community and South Park which are all going strong at the moment. I also need to eat and do various chores about the flat, and all of a sudden the evening is drifting away. Finding the discipline to write is difficult - which is hard to take when I like to think of myself as something of a natural writer. I know if I had a deadline that wasn't self-imposed things would be different. As it is I know that there won't be any real consequences if I write nothing tonight - other than my own disappointment.

While talking to mum on Monday she suggested that next time I'm up in Scotland I should have a look at my Grandad's diaries. I hadn't known previously, but apparently he wrote in his diary every day from sometime in the early 1980s until just before his death a few years ago. He apparently wrote about what was going on in the world at the time as well as what was going on in his life. It would be nice to see them - and I'm sure he'd be pleased to see me trying to do the same. The diaries certainly sound inspiring, though right now I'm sure it's discipline rather than inspiration that I need.